Nightmares.

Dream is really something for me. Something that could give me some hopes, some imaginations, and some fears. Some friends ever asked me, "Why you always got dream in your sleep? I though I never got a dream, if I did, I forgot it actually when I woke up". Those question made me asked for myself, why I had many dreams, and  in every my sleep, I got a dream. Since I was child, I surrounded by them. Sometimes I got a same dream in a different month or year. I mean, I got dreams with a "same" story twice for a year. Some of my dream that I ever had, I still remember. Remember how it feel and how the story was. These all that made me why I so fanatic and sensitive with dreams.

A question from me: "Why can I remember my dream for 3 months ago, but why can't I remember what my teachers said yesterday??"  superLOL.

Back to the topic. Nightmares. Nightmare is a bad dream, really bad dream. I got nightmares for a few days ago. It happened after I got an accident. Two days with different nightmare, but have same points. Fears, tense, and lost.

In my first dream, there was my friend who told me to see about mortuary. He told me to feel how if we died and he told me to touch and make a conversation with them (corpse). They life! I was quiet, full of fear, and tried to escape. I ran, and my friend chased me, tried to catch me and bring me back to that room. When I ran, I met with my other friend, my close friend (in my real world), he hit my chest for thrice or four times, with his powerfull. And I quiet again stared at his eyes, start to cry because of his did. And I don't know the place suddenly changed into waterpark. I lost at this place, until I went out, walk in road, in rainy day, walked and walked, tried to find how to go back to waterpark. Weird.

And in my second dream, there was my friend who tried to killed me, with various ways. I was fear, and really fear. He tried to strangle me with a rope. Until I went out of that house, he still tried to kill me with his plan. Then, the situation has changed. I got a mission to find beach. I walked and walked, embus, tried to find beach, but I never find it. What I got is I have lost, in place that I never know it. 

When I woke up, those fearness was still cling at me, not just for a day, but for a few day after I got those dream. And I know now, that's the power of the nightmare for me. I hope I never get it again. This realize me that every individual has a different perception about their dream. Ignore it or always remember it. It depends with every individual's aptitude.

So, it just a dream, so do not fear! :D

Oh sweet dreams, I still need you, please come to me in every my sleep :) 

Starts from me.

Lately, maybe you think that I often being galau (depressed). Why? Who? It was because.....

There was a thing that I should fix it. 1 word, but it can make your life complicated (yes, my life). It called "TIME". Time must be managed correctly. And everyone know that it's hard. So, what should I do is manage my time correctly and precisely. Manage for do assignments, prepare for Sunday service (periodically), all about organizations, and so Choirs practice. But how? Could I? Because everytime I tried, I always failed. Gzz~

"Oh time, could you be nice with me?"

"Could I have you more than 24 hours?"

Everything starts from me. Manage, manage, and manage. Write it on the paper, stick it in my room, hahaha.  Everything will better! Believe! Don't ever give up. Promise that I can get good marks, well do in every service, and give the best for my choirs. No matter how hard it is, how tired it is. I should do it all better than yesterday. Don't ever make someone dissapointed, that's the worst mistake. Give the best, keep fighting! 

and dont forget to.....

MANAGE TIME. -____________-

*dear friends, please help me to remember it :), hahaha


#spiritpost #formymotivation

Hey Desember!

Hey Desember!

Nice to meet you, oh JOYFUL month

Everybody always wait for you in every year

Hey teach me how can you always be awaited for everyone :D

What can I do in this begining of the month?

Study, yes, final exam is here. Do the best, nothing else. 

Pass this exam as soon as possible, so I can take my freedom back, Haha!

So, this is my December Wishes:

1. Pass my final exam with good result. Amen.

2. Be more kind to everyone.

3. Give the best for everyone.

4. Could play game everytime and everywhere. *devil* 

5. Get a special Christmas give :)

6. Get more money, AHAHAHA.

Six wishes, for December. I wish they will come true ♥

Ahh! Last, I wanna say Happy Wedding to Haroro and Byul! 

Wish you full of happiness always :D

what a sweet song

Olivia Ong

It's Real

this is the second post that I shared about this song..

The first were long time ago..

My fave song!

full of love.. :')

"my heart desires to be close to you.."

oh thanks :p

Yesterday, I found a song, an old song, and it made me remember about my love in past. I felt like I'm in love again when I listened that song, whereas I don't. Then, suddenly my hand moved to open our pictures, then I saw it one by one. 

My little smile showed. :)

I just want to say thanks, and big thanks to you, you, and the other you who ever filled my heart. Thanks for all memories, you made me know what love it is. And you know, when I loved you, I really did :). Even you can't be mine, I know, that's the best for us. Me and you should find the better one. If ours true, we will meet again, someday. Thank you for your concern, your time, your "hope" that you gave to me. I really appreciated it. It was not my mistake, or your mistake. Me? I just the one who didn't know that would be fell in love with you. Never want it, really. But, my heart was belong to you at that time. Why? I didn't know. And you? You are the one who very nice to me. Maybe you never know that your attitude gave some hope for me. Maybe it because you really kind for me, eventhough 'sometimes' too much for me. But it just a past.. :)

Now I just want to be your friend, or more, bestfriend. Don't make those story break our friendship. Take the new book, and draw the new one. You with your love, and me with mine someday. Lucky that I ever meet you~

And once again, thank you. Because of you, I know how to love someone, with my sincere and earnest heart. We have a different way now. I wish you could reach your goal, your wish. Wish the best for us~ Find your happiness. I'll always here, if you need my help :). Be a better man! :D , bye~

♥

think twice!

Kali ini tentang agama, bukan mau singgung, tapi cuma sedikit menerangkan. Ya, kita punya agama yang berbeda-beda, Kepercayaan yang beda-beda juga. Tuhan mengakui yang namanya perbedaan, Dia nggak pernah pilih-pilih orang. Siapa yang mengikutiNya, pasti selamat. Apa sih definisi mengikutiNya? berbuat baik, rajin berdoa, nggak berbuat dosa, itu sudah berarti mengikuti Tuhan. Nggak pake kekerasan, nggak pake kejahatan, itu juga sudah mengikutiNya. Sekarang, apa ada yang salah dengan agama yang berbeda? Okelah, kalau memang sudah menghargai agama lain, tetapi sayangnya hanya di depan saja. Tapi di belakang? Kurasa tidak. 

Jangan pernah menganggap diri kita yang paling benar. Boleh lah mengimani yang bener-bener kuat. Tapi hati-hati dengan imanmu! Merasa paling benar adalah satu kesalahan yang cukup fatal. Buat apa beriman kuat tapi membeda-bedakan? Buat apa beriman kuat tapi merasa paling benar? Buat apa beriman kuat tapi hanya menganggap hanya anda yang selamat? Bagaimana dengan orang-orang lain? Apakah mereka tidak selamat? Tuhan Yesus mengasihi setiap orang apapun itu. Mau agama ini itu, nggak beragama, asalkan dia bersikap beragama, Tuhan sudah senang dengan yang seperti itu, daripada kalian yang bergama tetapi merasa paling benar dan hidupnya juga penuh dosa. Agama lain juga punya tujuan mulia, kecuali pada mereka yang benar-benar sesat.

Apa yang lain tidak selamat? Menganggap yang lain seperti itu sama aja menghakimi orang kalo tidak selamat. Darimana kalian tahu? Hati-hati dengan imanmu. Hati-hati bisa menyesatkanmu. Tuhan sayang semua orang, Tuhan menciptakan semua orang dengan penuh kasih sayang.  Kalau seperti itu, dimana kasih sayang kalian? Sama aja dong kalian masalahin SARA. Jadi hargai kepercayaan orang lain. Baca kitab anda, berpositiflah, jangan dibawa ke pemahaman anda sendiri. Kalo kamu nggak menghargai dan merasa kalian saja yang benar, dosa nggak tuh? Coba deh dipikir lagi.. :) 

Kalo sepeti ini terus.. nggak damai-damai... hahaha..

Ini sedikit sharing aja, gara-gara berapa hari ini didatengin orang kerumah dan blablabla yang nggak jelas, dan nggak menghargai agama orang lain. :)

Me Want!

TARAA!!!

Do you know this?

Yes. this is HAHA's Doll!

So cute, isn't it?

I want a doll like this...

:D